Merry Christmas !

got a picture message from Grisella this afternoon :

Love ya too Gris :*

I feel lucky

*been a 3-month vacuum huh?*

Look at this quote we may always hit on, whether in the movies, books, or social networking sites : "My mother is the best mother in the world" or "My father is the best father in the world". As I noticed they're used very often, I thought it's just another "poetic" quote to show respect, love, bla3 to our parents. The other day I found it awkward. Yeah commonly people get only ONE father and ONE mother don't they? And of course, my parents are the best in the world (because I don't have other ones ?). Isn't it so? It's like saying becak is the most modern form of transportation when you never know the airplane. I thought the inventor or composer or poet or whoever started this quote was unintelligent. How could something which is already so obvious be made into a quote and yet people use it all the time to show how great their own mothers and fathers are.

(P.S. Of course this was just a random thought or probably a thought to think about when I felt like being a jobless professor :P )

Nevermind then, quotes like those aren't important. What matters is how we actually treat our parents, true?

But then.....to think about it again...It's ONE which means you can't compare with anybody else..... Jrenggg i got the point. It isn't to imply the selfishness of saying that only my parents are the best...instead, it is to tell that each one's parents are incomparable. Everyone's are the best ! In fact there's no way to compare, every parent loves their children, it's the way that differs. Well at least that's what I thought it means later on.

The same understanding applies for the other things, one of which : life. Our own life is the best. And we ain't supposed to envy others'. There was a time when I used to envy much of others' life. In my eyes, the great, famous, successful person, or even an ordinary person, they all had their own forte and no matter how, I'd always always be a small fry, not more. It turned out wrong. If everyone has "something", does it mean I don't? here is another quote, good one :

Beethoven was a great composer and pianist, he began to lose his hearing at his 20s and was completely deaf at 40s, yet he still managed to compose his music. Edison had gone through thousands of experiments before he finally invented the light bulb. See? We won't know the hardship someone has gone through before achieving a feat. We won't know if there's sorrow behind someone's smile. Again, we won't know how lucky we are before we stop envying others' life. Ever since i learnt to practice this theory in life, I have lived much happier. One's strength isnt't to be envied, it's to motivate ourselves to be a better person.

P.S. Anyway, unless you act upon it, feeling motivated is useless :)

oyeah

went for a 12-day family trip to China this holiday and I can say that it was beyond my expectation. I thought the trip would be boring - visiting historical sites and dealing with rubbish everywhere. But it turned out not. I felt like laughing at my stupid thought as amazement filled me seeing the modernity it has, especially in Beijing and Shanghai. 4 thumbs up (if one day I happen to have 4 hands ;)) for the superb buildings' height in Shanghai and the flyovers professionally made everywhere in the big cities. I wonder if I will live long enough to see Indonesia be like that. HA ! ;)

(up) at The Great Wall with some Westerns who requested to take a photo with me wearing that and suddenly I felt like a big superstar ! LOL. P.S: the costume was rented ;)

(up) at Shanghai Expo 2010 w/ family P.S: (almost) everyone said the one on the very right side was my elder brother. oh well... he's younger but taller okay.

(up) Chinese Pavilion @Shanghai Expo

(up) Indonesian Pavilion @Shanghai Expo

(up) w/ family at Elephant Trunk Hill, Guilin, a small city in the southeast of China. The has has got breathtaking view and OMG couldn't stop WOW-ing seeing all those.

(up) taken at The Venetian Resort, Macau with the gondoliers :D there were Claudia, the Barbie girl and Dante, my white-horse prince ;) everyone may dream right? v.v

(up) my second time to Hong Kong Disneyland :D but this time with much more fun :)

gotta go. holiday ends today :(

choosing the track of which I know I'll regret one day

been a long while since my last huge dilemma. Sometimes I wish I could have someone either to decide for me or to force me into any of the choices (well I actually bet if it possibly happened, I'd certainly refuse to follow)

Life is all about choices and how I wish it could be as easy as how it's spelled. I know every decision has its own risk along with its advantages. But it's somehow hard to make up my mind on one, moreover for a wishy-washy like me !

Why? :| Why am I taking an I-know-I-will-regret decision? I'm not sure either, it's probably my conscience telling me to do so ;) No matter how, the unchosen is neither a perfect nor the worst, but it's that I'm taking one, only one which brings me less pressure, even if it's gonna end up as how I predict, I care no more. Let future be future (how many times have I repeated the quote? ;) ) Let's throw all those unnecessary worries ! This is my life, I have to choose anyway. And whichever decision I've settled, I believe it's the best.

*SHOUTING* MY LIFE IS UP TO ME !

“I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I'd just been myself.” - Brittany Renée

repeated :P

HOLA !

IT HAS BEEN A MONTH ! HA ! :D

My recent life has been a mess since school started. LOL not really. but having mountains mountains mountains of homework sure gave me no time to do any blogging. and weirdly, we're now having our monthly test from last Friday to next Saturday.... and... why am I writing? well yes. there are always excuses to postpone studying................................................................ and and and c'mon I need a break :( it's Saturday anyway. Have I told you we've got to go to school even on Saturdays? Gee. With those seem-endless lessons at school, courses, and homework, sometimes I prefer having monthly test to be frank. At least we get home earlier and there are no assignments, true? The only thing is that we need to memorize like insane.

Somehow either the hectic school days or monthly exams, I like them both. They keep me busy ! and being busy means having less bad thoughts.... How I love the calmness when my brain contains only positive ones :) I learn not to bemoan the past nor to worry of the future uncertainties. Some may disagree... but I'm tired of all the worrying.

I used to have a lot of big dreams and big ambitions to be a successful self. Now I have one, just one.

I want a cheerful life.

I want to clear all the bad thoughts.

I want to live a simple relaxed life. It's not like I surrender to fate, I'll try to do my best, but if I fail, at least it's not gonna be my doomsday.

emm okay, there are three :P

I MISS SCHOOL !

Hello July. just realized there's only 1 post last month LOL ! Many things came out on my mind during this time... but I guessed they didn't suit to be written here. (or actually they are random and too much)

anyway back a week I joint this event called Harmonize Camp in Berastagi for 4 days. It was so much fun! and I was so much touched by the Dharma speech and discussion which were so close to my unanswerable questions before.

But then yeah I'm not that type who gets along with people easily. No worries, I'll always try and learn :)

Also, many thanks to the group leaders and committees who had contributed their time and efforts to lead such a successful and harmonized event. Harmonize Camp 2010 - the noble path to happiness :)

so the new term starts next Thursday. time flies. I feel like wasting a lot. And I am very much looking forward to school :) the time when finally my daily activities are all organized although with fatigue after arriving home every day. Think it's much better than -you know- lying on the bed all day with both eyes and hands on phone. Much more meaningless if I had woken up at almost-afternoon every "morning". Luckily I've got swimming course in the mornings :) ah at least I learn some skill, right? Certainly, don't order me to do any kind of homework on holiday, I'll end up postponing til the end of the day, or -second option- doing them halfheartedly. That's why my holiday homeworks are never done well. It's just...the laziness.

OH GREAT I MISS SCHOOL AND ALL THE SHOUTS AND ORDERS AND THE RULES AND THE TESTS AND THE FUN AND THE WEARINESS.