repeated :P

HOLA !

IT HAS BEEN A MONTH ! HA ! :D

My recent life has been a mess since school started. LOL not really. but having mountains mountains mountains of homework sure gave me no time to do any blogging. and weirdly, we're now having our monthly test from last Friday to next Saturday.... and... why am I writing? well yes. there are always excuses to postpone studying................................................................ and and and c'mon I need a break :( it's Saturday anyway. Have I told you we've got to go to school even on Saturdays? Gee. With those seem-endless lessons at school, courses, and homework, sometimes I prefer having monthly test to be frank. At least we get home earlier and there are no assignments, true? The only thing is that we need to memorize like insane.

Somehow either the hectic school days or monthly exams, I like them both. They keep me busy ! and being busy means having less bad thoughts.... How I love the calmness when my brain contains only positive ones :) I learn not to bemoan the past nor to worry of the future uncertainties. Some may disagree... but I'm tired of all the worrying.

I used to have a lot of big dreams and big ambitions to be a successful self. Now I have one, just one.

I want a cheerful life.

I want to clear all the bad thoughts.

I want to live a simple relaxed life. It's not like I surrender to fate, I'll try to do my best, but if I fail, at least it's not gonna be my doomsday.

emm okay, there are three :P

I MISS SCHOOL !

Hello July. just realized there's only 1 post last month LOL ! Many things came out on my mind during this time... but I guessed they didn't suit to be written here. (or actually they are random and too much)

anyway back a week I joint this event called Harmonize Camp in Berastagi for 4 days. It was so much fun! and I was so much touched by the Dharma speech and discussion which were so close to my unanswerable questions before.

But then yeah I'm not that type who gets along with people easily. No worries, I'll always try and learn :)

Also, many thanks to the group leaders and committees who had contributed their time and efforts to lead such a successful and harmonized event. Harmonize Camp 2010 - the noble path to happiness :)

so the new term starts next Thursday. time flies. I feel like wasting a lot. And I am very much looking forward to school :) the time when finally my daily activities are all organized although with fatigue after arriving home every day. Think it's much better than -you know- lying on the bed all day with both eyes and hands on phone. Much more meaningless if I had woken up at almost-afternoon every "morning". Luckily I've got swimming course in the mornings :) ah at least I learn some skill, right? Certainly, don't order me to do any kind of homework on holiday, I'll end up postponing til the end of the day, or -second option- doing them halfheartedly. That's why my holiday homeworks are never done well. It's just...the laziness.

OH GREAT I MISS SCHOOL AND ALL THE SHOUTS AND ORDERS AND THE RULES AND THE TESTS AND THE FUN AND THE WEARINESS.

accepting death

Hello. I haven't blogged for 2weeks and more ?! feel like postponing a lot. still remember I had been eager to post since the first of June but then the desire vanished although I wanna talk LOTS, yeah you know, laziness grows on holiday.

And so..

yesterday was the first time I experienced how that sorrow of having someone I ever met announced dead. I had not seen her for long years and I kinda forgot how she looked like. It's simply because I know she ever existed on the earth and unexpectedly, she's gone. forever. I felt terrible. I imagined how if she had been one of my close ones... but I had burst into tears even before I started.

I had been taught theories to accept death and I thought I wouldn't be so depressed of it. But now I seem not ready spiritually. Even to an almost-stranger, I feel this uneasy. sigh. I wish I have the strength when someday I encounter this again. death oh death.

P.S. I'm not a Twilight Saga freak but I've added an Eclipse movie countdowns ;) Let's count !

under-pressure

I've never liked being asked to do anything under-pressure. But I guess I should be when it comes to : studying. I'll never do well in unfavorite subjects IF I'm not being pressed. The pressure, literally, may mean "exams". I've never actually been eager to learn any specific thing though :/ even when I had, I got easily bored.

emmm..

well.

the post is done.

back to Baking Life and Hotel City ;)

memorable quote

我喜欢你

你明明不是我心目中喜欢的那样女生

可是 我 就 是 喜 欢 你 !

Translation :

I like you,

even though you are not my dream girl,

I still like you !

Quoted from "Hi My Sweetheart", Lin Da Lang to Chen Bao Zhu

report card

so... went to school this morning for this semester's report card. kinda fast eh? today was really the last of wearing the blue skirt.

I get an increasing yet satisfying rank, but I wonder if I really deserve it. It's starting to burden me.. a lot.

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