under-pressure

I've never liked being asked to do anything under-pressure. But I guess I should be when it comes to : studying. I'll never do well in unfavorite subjects IF I'm not being pressed. The pressure, literally, may mean "exams". I've never actually been eager to learn any specific thing though :/ even when I had, I got easily bored.

emmm..

well.

the post is done.

back to Baking Life and Hotel City ;)

memorable quote

我喜欢你

你明明不是我心目中喜欢的那样女生

可是 我 就 是 喜 欢 你 !

Translation :

I like you,

even though you are not my dream girl,

I still like you !

Quoted from "Hi My Sweetheart", Lin Da Lang to Chen Bao Zhu

report card

so... went to school this morning for this semester's report card. kinda fast eh? today was really the last of wearing the blue skirt.

I get an increasing yet satisfying rank, but I wonder if I really deserve it. It's starting to burden me.. a lot.

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a bad quarter of an hour

I was on Primary 2 level. 2C class. religion subject.

I and 3 other mates were debating a question, which was actually a stupid debate for now to think, because our answers are one hun..-okay 99%- the same.

The class was such a noise that the teacher started to be sosososo mad. unlucky of me, I was being a busy-body, kept talking, eh debating.

She came to my desk, picked up a wastepaper from the floor, and inserted it in my mouth.

I don't dare to say I was not guilty. I was because I kept talking. But hey, isn't that too rude for a 2nd Primary grader? Even if you did that to the current 3rd JHS me, it would still hurt. Moreover you were a religion teacher.

Somehow it affected my life years after. Some of my ex-classmates have never forgot and maybe.. will never. I just act like I never remember when they deliberately remind me of that.

I could tell my friends anything but never this, until we were asked to tell strange experiences of us at my English course just now. By the time I finished the speaking - though with some tears, I thought.. I'd finally got over it. I actually had much more to say to them but I couldn't stand the tears.

Like what I blogged before, "Let bygones be bygones", the same words were also uttered by Ms. Widya, my English teacher.

P.S. this really is the worst memory to remember from the first 10 years of my life.

I stop trying

I would like to express how I used to be : perfectionist

some pieces of it still sticks on the current me. I never get satisfied if I haven't chosen the best one, although it's for others' sake.

Hey and now I realize when I try to be perfect at one, then another thing gets wrong. Try to fix this and that suddenly dropped. SO HOW ?

When I try to be kind to you, then another 'you' makes me feel so uneasy by saying uncomfortable-words-to-be-heard. What am I supposed to do?

When I try to be who I am and act the way I do, I never know who feels unhappy, who complains not to me, out of my knowing.

I never know.

God, I have 3 questions.

May human simply live without haters? without enemies? without sarcasms?

May I know how others have thought about me?

Do I still have to live caring for what others' saying and feeling if they never care for mine?

Ip Man 2

So I went to watch the movie with some friends. and I'm out of words except "great". I really felt my emotion burst out as I learnt how Westerns had underestimated Chinese Kungfu and tradition. I was shouting and fuming at the Westerns ! If you had sit next to me then you would have known I was such a noise. At the same time I was also touched by the Chinese not accepting the Westerns' humiliation. I CRIED. I think no one did. who cares :p not to forget, I tapped my legs like crazy due to furiousness and successfully made my friends laughed at my act. embarrassing yet fun hahaha.

Don't you just love his calm expression? cool !

this guy on the left is whom I wanted to punch !!

young Bruce Lee. He was this Ip Man's student. (true story)

P.S.The fact that nowadays Westerns appreciate Chinese more than before relieve me.

Happy Mother's Day anyway ! :)

Let it be my life

I used to cry. a lot. but..

If life has much more to enjoy more than teardrops-facial-washing, why won't I clean up and tell troubles "I AM READY !" If contrary to my pursuing of study, my parents advise "never give yourself too much pressure, top 100 rank on your grade is more than okay", why should I frown all day just thinking "I wanna be better better and better". If there are always more days for joy than sorrow, then what will I get from crying over my "piteous" life? If I'm 'pity', then what will I nickname the beggars? the paralyzed? the mute? the deaf? the lunatic? Even many of them can stop complaining their life and make new hopes, why can't I? I prefer enjoying my life as much as I can rather than wasting time inviting problems. I instruct myself to be calm because words kill. I'm becoming rather forgetful, I guess it's good, because bad thoughts are now easily thrown. I do less, because whether or not my deeds are hurting others, I don't know.

I stop being too ambitious and clingy because I don't wanna burden myself with those uncertainties. Just let it be. Let bygones be bygones and future be future. All I'd like to do now is to live the current life and learn more from it.

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor to worry about the future, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly. - Buddha

Nah, now, I've officially passed the National Exam. Hello Senior High School

ILANA TAN ♥

Jung Tae-Woo―penyanyi muda terkenal Seoul yang muncul kembali setelah empat tahun menghindari dunia showbiz. Aku hanya ingin memintamu berfoto denganku sebagai pacarku, kata Jung Tae-Woo pada gadis di hadapannya. Sandy alias Han Soon-Hee―gadis blasteran Indonesia-Korea yang sudah mengenali Jung Tae-Woo sejak awal, namun sedikit pun tidak terkesan. Sandy mengangkat wajahnya dan menatap laki-laki itu, lalu berkata, "Baiklah, asalkan wajahku tidak terlihat.

Awalnya Jung Tae-Woo tidak curiga kenapa Sandy langsung menerima tawarannya. Sementara Sandy hanya bisa berharap ia tidak akan menyesali keputusannya terlibat dengan Jung Tae-Woo. Hari-hari musim panas sebagai kekasih Jung Tae-Woo dimulai. Perubahan rasa itu pun ada. Namun keduanya tidak menyadari kebenaran kisah empat tahun lalu sedang mengejar mereka.

Tara Dupont menyukai Paris dan musim gugur. Ia mengira sudah memiliki segalanya dalam hidup sampai ia bertemu Tatsuya Fujisawa yang susah ditebak dan selalu membangkitkan rasa penasarannya sejak awal.

Tatsuya Fujisawa benci Paris dan musim gugur. Ia datang ke Paris untuk mencari orang yang menghancurkan hidupnya. Namun ia tidak menduga akan terpesona pada Tara Dupont, gadis yang cerewet tapi bisa menenangkan jiwa dan pikirannya juga mengubah dunianya.

Tara maupun Tatsuya sama sekali tidak menyadari benang yang menghubungkan mereka dengan masa lalu, adanya rahasia yang menghancurkan segala harapan, perasaan, dan keyakinan. Ketika kebenaran terungkap, tersingkap pula arti putus asa arti tak berdaya Kenyataan juga begitu menyakitkan hingga mendorong salah satu dari mereka ingin mengakhiri hidup.

Seandainya masih ada harapan---sekecil apa pun---untuk mengubah kenyataan, ia bersedia menggantungkan seluruh hidupnya pada harapan itu.

Tetangga baruku, Nishimura Kazuto, datang ke Tokyo untuk mencari suasana baru. Itulah katanya, tapi menurutku alasannya lebih dari itu. Dia orang yang baik, menyenangkan, dan bisa diandalkan. Perlahan-lahan---mungkin sejak malam Natal itu---aku mulai memandangnya dengan cara yang berbeda. Dan sejak itu pula rasanya sulit membayangkan hidup tanpa dia.

---Keiko tentang Kazuto

Sejak awal aku sudah merasa ada sesuatu yang menari dari Ishida Keiko. Segalanya terasa menyenangkan bila dia ada. Segalanya terasa baik bila dia ada. Saat ini di dalam hatinya masih ada seseorang yang ditunggunya. Cinta pertamanya. Kuharap dia bisa berhenti memikirkan orang itu dan mulai melihatku. Karena hidup tanpa dirinya sama sekali bukan hidup.

---Kazuto tentang Keiko

Mereka pertama kali bertemu di awal musim dingin di Tokyo. Selama sebulan bersama, perasaan baru pun mulai terbentuk. Lalu segalanya berubah ketika suatu hari salah seorang dari mereka terbangun dan sama sekali tidak mengingat semua yang terjadi selama sebulan terakhir, termasuk orang yang tadinya sudah menjadi bagian penting dalam hidupnya...

Gadis itu tidak menyukainya. Kenapa?

Astaga, ia--Danny Jo--adalah orang yang baik. Sungguh! Ia selalu bersikap ramah, sopan dan menyenangkan. Lalu kenapa Naomi Ishida menjauhinya seperti wabah penyakit? Bagaimana mereka bisa bekerja sama dalam pembuatan video musik ini kalau gadis itu mengacuhkannya setiap saat? Kesalahan apa yang sudah dia lakukan?

Bagaimanapun juga Danny bukan orang yang gampang menyerah. Ia akan mencoba mendekati Naomi untuk mencari tahu alasan gadis itu memusuhinya.

Tetapi ada dua hal yang tidak diperhitungkan Danny. Yang pertama adalah kemungkinan ia akan jatuh cinta pada Naomi Ishida yang dingin, misterius, dan penuh rahasia itu. Dan yang kedua adalah kemungkinan ia akan menguak rahasia gelap yang bisa menghancurkan mereka berdua dan orang-orang yang mereka sayangi.

P.S. a little too late but they're still worth posting ;)

Berastagi I'm in love

i was so afraid that i promise not to ride any horse for some time before getting over my trauma

my face looks so childish eh? :p

so sad while looking at this -__- reminding me : I AM SHORT

more on my friend's camera. lol

simple tiredness on the first day, stomachache for the second and aching arm at last.

those didn't affect the fun. the excitement. and the cheeriness of our juvenile age.

can't express my thoughts well. i don't know, it's just FUN.

I wish I could have another 3-day there. another another and another ........